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All I'm asking is for someone to be there for me not because they have to or when they find it convienent for them but because they want to. Yea, I fuck up sometimes but who doesn't? At least I can admit that I have flaws and not walk around like I'm perfect. I'm just hoping that I'm not wasting my time or emotions on someone that doesn't feel the same. I've had my heart broken many times but always seemed to give the next man a fair chance. Being accused of everything under the sun because some dumbass female hurt you in the past. My patience is there and I can tolerate going through hell and back but that doesn't mean that I like it. I'm tired of being there for people who obviously could give a damn about me. I'm always nice and in return gets shitted on in the end. Why cant I be the one who doesnt give a fuck? Why do I care what you think? Always tending to others before myself. Then when I do, I'm wrong and get doubted and called all kinds of names. why? Attitudes I can deal with but I would rather not choose to.

How could I care so much about a person and know that the feelings aren't returned? You can say what you want all day but you show something different. So tell me why should I put myself out there just to get rejected or hurt again? Im not going to, getting hurt is too painful. I shouldn't have allowed myself to fall for you, i was only kidding myself thinking that you felt the same. I should've known better, I allowed you to get close to me thinking that it was okay. Now once again I feel like a fool for allowing myself to be vulnerable with you. There is no one to blame except myself. Why I thought you were different? I have no clue, I should've allowed my guard to stay up.