Life Update

Okay, I know it's been ages since I last blogged but a lot has been going on and I had the chance to actually blog but never did because I was so stressed. Im not as stressed as I used to be but it is still there.

Marriage is a wonderful things, it is full of ups and downs but having that one person who will always be there to help u through it and will always have ur back no matter what makes it worth while. That one person who u could tell everything to and the love that you have for each other is so apparent. I dont have that anymore I thought I did but it turned out not to be. Right now at this point in my life I dont ever want to get married again because the hurt and pain caused by someone who have given ur all to is undescribable. This marriage has been full of ups and downs but the good times always pulled through. Even going through the divorce process has been stressful. My husband and I are still friends and we are cool as hell, we still laugh and joke around just like we used and some people just dont seem to get why. They think that just cause we're getting a divorce we're supposed to be angry and at each other's throats all the time. I still go to his family's house and spend time with them, hell we even went out together all of us his parents, brother,him, my sister and I and had a ball. I love his family and they love me and no matter what happened between me and their son they chose to remain a part of my life and Im so greatful for that.

Since we are divorcing I have moved back to Athens to stay with my parents until I get back on my feet. Which there was a lot of heated discussion because I felt as if I was going backwards. I mean ever since I was little I wanted to get out of Athens and that was my goal. I have went away and came back and that's not what I wanted, not to live. For some Athens is a dream come true but for me my dreams and aspirations are much bigger. So for now I will be taking classes at Athens Tech(hopefully), find a job so I can save up money to continue doing what I need to do in my life. Going through this divorce has made me realize who I am and what I actually want in life. Even though we've had our arguments or whatever I love my parents. If it wasnt for them God knows where I would be right now.

Through all of this I can still hold my head up high. Cause I know that I tried and done my best by him and it just wasnt the right time for us. We made it further than alot of people thought we would. I wish him the best and Im going to continue to follow my dreams. For the people that have been there for me through this all I truly appreciate and love you guys even though I know some of u dont read these. For that one person I've cried my eyes out to, all the talks we have had, doing what u did even when u didnt have the money to do it and for the nights u held me in ur arms because that was what I needed the most, thanks a lot u are truly a good friend and Im glad that u came into my life at the point that I considered to be my lowest. Even though u don't think so, u are truly a special person and no matter what I will be thankful and appreciative of what u have done for me. 

I dont regret anything that has happened because it is a lesson learned and it was a life changing experience for me. It was great while it lasted but now it is time to push forward through all the adversity, stupid comments and rumors and to move on with my life. The best way to make people look like an ass is to do what I planned and it will speak for itself.  The comments,stories,lies, and whatever else people who absolutely know nothing about me say are just the fuel for my fire. For the person who told my step-mom there was a nasty blog about them why dont u run and tell this.