2nd Anniversary

Ok so today Im very emotional, I dont know what to do or how to control. Today is the day that I have been married for two years. No, its not all congratulations or noting like that because probbaly for the past 4 or 5 months we've been seperated. Im in Athens and he's down there. I dont know how to feel at this point because everything is at a stand still with us. One part of me is happy and wants that romantic part but the other half is just like fuck it, its another day... We're still in communication and recently both of us had it on our minds... IM just very overwhelmed at this point that I cant even think straight.. I just one of two things to happen, either we reconcile and continue putting forth the effort to keep this marriage going or we end it. Now, Im not one to believe in divorces but I cant do this any longer... I need someone who is going to be there for me through it all and give me the time, love, and energy that I need... Not saying that he hasnt been there because he has even with us being seperated he's been there. I just cant do this.. knowing that I have a husband 4 hours away and I cant even see him when I want.. It was different when he was deployed that I can deal with but dammit he's stateside and I cant even do that. I want someone that I can wake up to every morning, who will love me unconditionally, always have my back, who understands and knows where Im coming from... I want to be able to cook and clean for him, have little romantic nights planned, just to cuddle up on the sofa and watch movies or read a book or something... I cant do that, I miss talking to him at nights in the bed, I just miss everything that we used to do... Am I wrong for wanting these things? I dont think that its too much to ask, I just want that commitment to one another and to know that we will be together forever, for however long forever may be.